This Terrible Love, a journal of nonduality

  Back from a ceremony to celebrate the Summer Solstice. Even when connected to something we seem to observe, the sun’s movements in this case, making some part of ‘what is’ special seems surreal these apparent days. It’s hard to feel connected to ideas about time, or maybe it's just my excuse for no longer acknowledging birthdays and holidays. I honestly can't even remember the imaginary days and numbers attached to "my birthday." As the legendary guru Janis Joplin once said, "if you got it today you don't want it tomorrow, man, cause you don't need it, cause as a matter of fact, as we discovered in the train, tomorrow never happens; it's all the same fucking day, man." But it seems as if humans, at least contemporary humans, often need a story of specialness to simply feel free to express the joy of life. Though that joy gets mixed in with all manner of meaning and interpretation. At the Solstice ceremony, there was dance and music, but s